
I was driving through the great town of Rothesay this past week, not paying any attention to where I was going, off in my own little world of thought. As I drove, I was crunching numbers in my head, stressing about whether or not I was going to be able to make ends meet this month. The past few weeks it seems that we've been hit with unpredicted expense after unpredicted expense. Having the attention span that I have, it was not long before I was day-dreaming about being filthy rich, and the freedom that would come along with that. I got thinking how; above all of the luxuries, the greatest thing about being rich is just not having to worry about money. I got thinking "man I wish I didn't have to worry about money." Before I could even finish my thought, the Lord spoke to me. This was not just a whim, or another thought, but it felt as if someone whispered into my spirit the words "you don't." "Brent you are my son, and you don't have to worry about money. or ANYTHING else." Now, most of you who have walked with the Lord for a while, and have been in Church know all about faith, and all about worry, and we have heard a million messages on "God's Provision", but sometimes those three point sermons on why we don't need to worry just aren't enough when pinned up against the stack of bills we find in our mailbox. This time was different for me though, it was as if something clicked in my soul; I felt God speaking to me saying,
"if you do not have the faith that you are my child, and that I will provide for you, then what do you have faith for? That I can help other people? but not you.. That I AM only interested in performing miracles for my children that REALLY need help? AM I only the God of small, comfortable things? Or, are you going to let me be the God that YOU SAY I AM to everyone else."
Still rolling along in my car, the Lord breathed a peace into my heart about Melanie and the future of our future family. He reiterated to me that I am His child, and I have EVERYTHING that I need to fullfill my purpose in this life. I have absolutely nothing to worry about.
I think sometimes as Christians God will allow things to happen that will put our faith to the test: 1, to make us realize how small it truly may be (as in my case) and 2. to strengthen it for the trials that come ahead. In whatever the trial, or challenge I may be facing, I can not be consumed with worry because I know that my God is so much bigger than any financial struggle. I mean really, think about how meaningless all the money in the world is to Him: It's His anyway, and as far as He is concerned, thats not even real wealth.
Anyway, I am just praising God for the new sense of security He has given to me for the future of My family.
God, thank you that you are so much bigger than my Aliant Bills; I thank you for the peace and rest you offer to me, and everyone else regarding a future as your Child; and thank you that you are a God who loves me enough to be concerned about my problems, big and small; Forgive me for the times my faith has been short, and for the times I have worried about problems that you are so much bigger than. Continue to speak truth into my soul, and strengthen my faith for the certain diffuculties ahead.
Your child
BD